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[grayrose]

I woke up at 5am after a nightmare of three personalized rejections. I dreamed I got one from Strange Horizons on Geddarien, and the editor wrote that my story was like "a puppy that suffers and whines but never dies." The other rejection was for "Imperfect Verse" from Eclipse - praise, but "the market is entirely wrong for it". Third was for a poem, I don't even remember which one.

I woke up and ran to check my email. Nothing.
Just my anxiety.

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[southernweirdo.livejournal.com]

Understandable anxieties. Not to psychoanalyze, but maybe the dream is tied in with the recent change in status you mentioned in your earlier post? A new job, possibly a new house, the dissertation, etc. -- that's a lot to be anxious about.

I've learned not to sweat the rejection part (or so I tell myself until I get the next one in the old inbox and then have to go for another three mile jog through the woods to cool myself down), because chances are if a story is rejected, it's for the best. Possibly the story needs another revision and if it went out in the current state it would be a blemish on your future record of publications. Or maybe it would be better received by an audience for a different market? I tend to thank editors for their rejections most of the time -- especially when they're personalized with constructive criticism -- because I know the rejection is hardly ever "personal." They're not rejecting me, they're just rejecting that one particular story. And usually, they request more, which is encouraging.

[grayrose76.livejournal.com]

TJ - yep, you are right. There's an avalanche of changes... none of them pertain to my writing though, so it is weird that my anxiety translated into rejections.

I am fine with rejections, actually. It is all part of the process. But I hate waiting...

:)
Rose